Anger Management

I had all these fancy things in my head about going on Expo finally. But I think this may be important to write about.

I have friends who describe me as really happy. My gay friend says he can't imagine me ever being bitchy or angry. Of course, I told him, if you were family, you probably would see me as being capable of both.

I had this fight with my nephew, whom I'm close, too. Suffice to say, it is still not resolved. But I keep thinking about how, after I fought with him and we weren't speaking with each other, how my temper would flare and I could so easily yell at my nieces. I wish I could also do a process of evaluation and assessment with my family. Even though, I do a form of it when I apologize, it's not the same. I understand now what Val means when she says that if they don't hold the same principle, they're not on the same page as you, then the process might not mean as much, although the sorry will certainly still be needed.

Being with people 24/7 can trigger, I see, your darkest self. No question.

So, I'm trying to prepare myself. As much as I love Cris and Jax, I don't want to be caught unprepared and be in the same situation as I am now with my nephew. On un-speaking terms.

So, when Cris and Jax and I have a moment when we can breathe, I'm hoping to review with them our principle of evaluation and assessment.

I self-criticize that I haven't been able to see Joan at the Gab office.